2/10/2021

 I woke up at 629am today.  No reason.  I couldn't breathe I guess because when I took a few deep breaths the air burned in my lungs in a way that suggested I had been neglecting the ONE thing my body HAS to do.

Sometimes life is like that.

I also had this weird dream where I had trapped some tiny humans/pokemon under glass in my kitchen and the 2 different Pokemon were banging each other under this glass.  I kept tapping and trying to get them to stop because I had just found these in the garden and I wasn't sure I wanted more of them around.

So Fairy dreams, I guess, in thinking about it.  I'm just relieved I remembered a dream.  It's been at minimum a few months since I've been able to regularly do that.  In fact, maybe even years.

My plan was to sleep through as much of the day as I could because today is an anniversary.  It's my ex's 41st.  I threw around the idea of baking myself a cake since I had been deprived of "second birthday" for a few.  Since Paul and I kinda celebrated both of our birthdays as our own... I should just celebrate all the spouse/ex-spouse birthdays as my own.  That'll show them... Something.  


I think I'm probably a humorist, but I am not sure what training is required for that.  Like, do I just start writing humorous stuff when the mood strikes, (which can sometimes be YEARS) or do I just write shit I think is funny and hope others agree?

Tally ho I guess.


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